Monthly Archives: January 2013

The Beginning of a New

“Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” ― Carl Bard

After graduation, I was already working some place, it felt good to be able to start working full-Time somewhere. It was exciting that I had some place to go, and I did excellent work there. I was working there for about two and just shy of 2 months I believe. The business was struggling, but I was able to keep myself a vital part of their business. I wasn’t just an editor but I was able to bring in their social media, I also created and worked on some web site designs. And because I owned my own camera I’d go on shoots for them.

At the end of the two years, not even all my skills, they were no longer able to keep me on as an employee. I took it very, very hard, I never really been let go from a job before in that same nature before. It was there where I knew that I had to make a choice, leave my fate in someone else’s hand or make something of my own and be in charge of my own destiny. Some people are perfectly fine letting someone control their lives, they wake up, they go to work, they have one task they must do or a few different tasks, they come home, they vent about how their day went. They sleep and the cycle starts all over for them.

I don’t want to ever live my life that way ever again, so, I took this ending as my new beginning that I would really start focusing on building something for myself so I wouldn’t have to rely on another person again, if I fail, I fail because of me and not the decisions of others were not in the best interest of it’s employees. I began taking stock of my talents, I’m an avid writer, I enjoy painting, very Tech and Social Media savvy, I have an amazing eye in terms of Photography and I enjoy the art of weaving a powerful story and using music for emotional set up.

All my skills could be transferable into different avenues but I really wanted to do something completely unique to my personality. Remember how I said in a previous blog, I take a simple task or assignment and I find ways to do something completely different to make it my own? Well, such is my life, not very much interested in going the same route anymore, hasn’t worked for me in the past and I need to do something completely different and very much my own.

Thus is why way back in February of last year I began writing a novel, I worked on it off and on when ever I had free time or could get myself into the mode of sitting down to write, my writing style is hand written first then I’ll go back and type all my notes out. Can be a bit more time consuming but you end up automatically creating the second draft as you type it. So that is where I am at right now. Have you ever been in a similar position? had to change your path or try something unique and different? I’d love to hear your experiences with that, so feel free to leave a comment down below!

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Life Experiences

“Creativity is just connecting things. When you ask creative people how they did something, they feel a little guilty because they didn’t really do it, they just saw something. It seemed obvious to them after a while. That’s because they were able to connect experiences they’ve had and synthesize new things.” – Steve Jobs

The other night I was out at the local cafe and bar I frequent for creative and positive reinforcement, and there was a man who was only about two or three years older than I am.
His bags were packed, and talking to the server about what just happened to him. You see he just left his companion of three years, he said he was fine and it was a long time coming
and finally got pushed to the point where he had to take action and do something.

I felt horrible for this man, because just 6 months ago, I was in a similar experience, it took me what would seem forever to wrap my head around everything that transpired over the last
six months. Only now, the past two months have I really been in a good and positive. I’ve been feeling really good about my life and all the possibilities ahead of me. But if you told me that
6 months ago I’d probably say “you just don’t understand”. Listening to this man about what he had to endure made me realize that no matter how alone we feel or what ever bad experience we go through there is always someone before you, or after you that will go through the same.

When people talk about the bad moments in life and they call it an “Experience” I often wonder to myself if that experience was worth going through, or if it would have been better not to feel anything at all. But with every experience we grow, we become stronger. And when you fill yourself with as many experiences as you can in life, good or bad, something completely magnificent happens with your life.

Life ceases to become stagnate and becomes fruitful and limitless, for your soul over flows with knowledge and the boundaries of what you can and can’t handle get push back, fear then becomes a thing of the past and you become completely fearless to live the way you were meant to live. It’s an interesting thought process to go through, one of which after everything that I’ve been through and now beginning to understand everything very so clearly. I have a clear understanding of how to read people in a completely different way, and, not to judge who a person is but who they could become. And there are those that their creatures of habit, they will never change and must accept them who they are, you can’t change people, you can only change how we handle ourselves.

So I guess in short, what I learned from yesterday’s events about life is, no matter what you go through, tomorrow is another day. We learn, we grow, we are strong, and there will always be someone in the same position as you some where in this world and you are not alone. It’s life, and life isn’t always easy, we have to fight for what is ours and what we deserve in life. You can chose to be a victim or you can rise above and become who you were meant to be without the unnecessary drama.

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The Trials and Tribulations only make us Stronger

“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life – think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success.” – Swami Vivekananda

My first day of entering Mohawk College as a mature student, in the Television Broadcasting course was to say the least, a tad bit scary but exciting at the same time.
It was scary in that, this was it, my dreams come true, what if I find out I spent my entire life chasing a phantom dream!? Once getting involved in the classes that
I find out that I completely dislike the whole idea of Television and it was all a waste of time? It was exciting because at the same time I just loved the pure
story telling aspect of Television, didn’t matter if it was visual or verbal it was the art of storytelling I loved and passionate about the most!

Piecing information together, creating the words that will go and really hit home visually to a story piece, the creative process of learning an entirely new
camera then what I’m use to and the importance of audio to your production was really invigorating. Thankfully, my friends that I’ve made in the previous course
I took also came with me into our first year television course. We also made sure we were in the proper section so we could all be together and wouldn’t have to
really meet new people.

I’m not going to lie, the course was very demanding, there was a lot of information to take in, not only are you trying to learn old methods of editing but at the
same time learn the new way of editing on the computer instead of tape to tape. But, I think after a few classes, and the first initial tests, once getting out on
the field and shooting, I knew right then and there this was a place were I was meant to be and I would work my butt off to make it through every single test, every
single shoot and make it my own.

Needless to say, again, it wasn’t that easy. There were events that transpired that I never really had to deal with before, like the whole idea of group work
and being a team player. It’s easy to be a team player when you’re getting paid to do so, but when you’re dealing with really good friends, and just getting marks
which should be as equal to if not more as money, you tend to slack with what is expected of you.

Some people go through school like they were a leaf in the wind, just bouncing from one class to another with out a care in the world never really looking
at the bigger picture and what is at stake, fail one test? I’ll make it up on the next one. But for others they really wanted to make their mark.
And some people need to be pushed up against the wall, so close to failing that they will do anything and what ever it takes to crawl back out of the hole,
nothing more embarrassing then not being able to graduate with your friends but not that, that type of person would care because they would just be pissing
their life away in the mean time.

And then there are just those that no matter what mark they get, they can always con people into getting what they want, and it might work for a majority of the time
but it doesn’t always suit your needs to be that way and rely on that method to create and manifest your destiny. There were very many great moments in that 3 year stretch
of television broadcasting course I could talk about, but none would compare to the First day I decided to to change my life around and the last day I would step into
that school as a Student.

Graduation from the course taught me one thing, dreams will stand on their own if you have passion and courage to pursue them, no matter how long it takes, no matter
what you have to go through during the process to get there. And it is ultimately not the final destination but the journey to get there that matters the most.
Graduation is simply a piece of paper acknowledging your efforts and a pat on the back. But it’s not the end, only merely a new beginning.

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Failure is not Fatal

“If you’re bored with life – you don’t get up every morning with a burning desire to do things – you don’t have enough goals.” Lou Holtz

And so the time came when I was first introduced to the rest of my life, I believe, this began in Grade 10 of my high school career where
I was exposed to the art of making movie magic! There was a course I took, Communication’s and Technology, at the time of entering into
high school the students that were in their final year truly inspired the creative in me. They were creating video’s and short films that
I could only DREAM of creating at the time.

I had the computer technology, I had the software for editing, I had energy, and ideas, but what I lacked was a camera to see things through.
When finally getting into the course, it opened my heart and mind to an endless possibilities. Here I was standing in what at the time was a HUGE
studio space, with all the latest in the technology. The High School I went to some how procured funding to create the most up-to-date studio
set up I’ve ever known for a High School to have!

Camera’s, lighting grid, Green screen, switcher and young hungry talented teenagers. I was in finally in my element, we learned the in’s and outs of
creating a live on-air show every morning for the announcements. Creating ENG pieces for the news to throw to, graphics, everything a Newscast needed.
It was a terrific and amazing time, it was there, where I would meet and join forces with a group of friends that had so much imagination to them
and had so many fun adventures that I just fell in love with the lifestyle of waking up each morning and do what I love to do which is create!

When it started getting closer and closer to the time of graduations, I had to make a choice of where will I begin the next phase of my journey.
I really always loved the reputation that Mohawk College in Hamilton carried with it. reminded me of the High School in a lot of ways.
That’s when I decided, I was going to do this, I was going to get into Mohawk College for Television Broadcasting no matter what!

When I explained this to one of my teachers at my high school his response after a little chuckle, he told me “If you go there, the only thing
you’ll end up doing is making safety tapes at Defasco” Needless to say this remark was not very encouraging to a young fresh and creative mind
like myself. I was determined to make it in, it was there I felt the sting of my first of many set back of struggling to remain who I am.

When I applied I had very high hopes, however, my marks just were not there. They then suggested I take the General Arts and Science course to boost
my chances of making it in. So I did, and I was accepted, but, again I struggled through out the process of doing something I didn’t love to do.
The subjects were not my thing, and eventually dropped out within the first year.

I then ended up taking the rest of the tuition money and buy my very first camera, it was a clunky hi-8 camera, nothing flashy but with it I was able
to create my own video’s and continue practicing my craft until next year and I would try to get into Television Broadcasting again. So I went to work,
my first ever REAL job, it was at the local bowling alley. It was there where I spent the next 7 years of my life, a wonderful experience to have happened
to me. I learned so much about, friendship, loyalty, customer service. And just to live a happy life style.

It got to year 3 of working there when things began to change for me, in the beginning, it was fun, it was exciting to learn something new every single day
about myself and my capabilities. But when summer time came, and all my high school friends came back and were customers it started to be depressing. Year after year,
my friends asking “so, what have you been up to?” and year after year saying “Just this?” took a tole on me, I stopped imagining myself going to Mohawk and just figured
I’d be there for the rest of my life, I was depressed.

Finally I was pushed and let my dreams off to the side for FAR too long! My determination to get back into things began to come back, and I started apply to Mohawk again
as a mature student, but again, faced with doom and gloom of failure once more! However this time, someone suggested I check out the “Pre-Media” course Mohawk
would begin to offer, again it was a way to increase my chances to get into the Television Broadcasting course and it was made for people like myself.

I was ecstatic! It sounded too good to be true, I applied and was accepted into their program! I set my sights on really doing well and focusing this time around
to make the grade and get myself into TV. The course was only one year, and while in this program I learned a lot about Photography, Video, and became friends with
the most amazing bunch of people. I was again in another element mode. My grades were great, I was creating awesome work with a great team of people! And had many, many great memories. And in the end, I graduated for that one year course with a certificate, a great achievement for myself, but that wasn’t the end.

The moment of truth came, I applied once more, and in the end I was finally accepted into the Television broadcasting course at Mohawk College.
The experience I under went was probably the greatest lesson I’ll ever learn, Failure is not fatal, it does not hurt us. Failures in life were meant to make us stronger,
overcoming adversity in life is apart of the game. We will win some, we will lose some, much like anything in life. The point is, if you’re truly passionate about something
and you set your sights and really focus on your goals, you can achieve anything! It might not be today, might not be tomorrow, but as long as you never give up, you will get where you need to be eventually. Have faith and believe in what you do, for at the end of the day, it’s all we got.

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The Unconventional Way

“Pollock was well known, certainly, but for all the wrong reasons. He was known as much for being wild and unconventional in his working methods as for being a great artist.”
Kenneth Noland

The year is 1999, first year of High School, such a great time to be a teenager but also a horrific at the same time.
It was at this point in time where I really realized how different my mind work, thus the title “The UnConventional Way”
While my marks in the beginning of High School were good, they were not great either, I struggled all throughout High School.
I really, really needed to focus in order to have an acceptable grade. But, I often found myself in a trance, not really there
but still there enough to pay attention.

You see, it was around this time, I had bought my brand new shinny Pentium 100 MHZ computer, loaded with also the internet,
which I purchased with my own money I earned from delivering the local newspaper. You could only imagine my joy and happiness
of how I spent months even years saving up to buy my very own computer, that was mine all mine! And have myself connected to
the world wide web was just amazing and doing this all on my own.

I slowly became immersed into the online world, spending hours and hours and HOURS connected, being connected, and learning
what ever I could on the Internet. Yet, when it came to going into high school, that kind of focus just wasn’t there. I was
uninterested, even though I enjoyed the subjects like Science, Religion, Art, and so on and so forth, I lacked the ability
to focus and retain information for testing purposes.

Do you remember in science class how you had to make a model of a plant cell, showing how plants collect and store energy?
Well, this is how I knew that my life would go down an unconventional path.

At the time, my brother inspired me with all the awesome tasks a computer can do, you see my brother really loved designing on
Auto cad. In fact that is what he does for a living right now with his own business, designing homes. With that he was also
learning a new program for Dos called 3D Studio, a powerful 3d program, in the hands of a minor is dangerous!

I became consumed with this power that I was able to create these (at the time) amazing 3D Animations, which at the time since
I couldn’t afford a camera, I could create Animated stories with it. I just loved using this program and learning the in and outs
of piecing together an animation from scratch.

When it came down to creating that model, everyone in the class was just doing what they were suppose to do, build it using materials
they can get at the local art store and craft it that way. For some reason, this did not interest me at all, even though it was still
an art form, it didn’t excite me, I wasn’t passionate about it and I didn’t love it.

Instead I came in with a VHS tape to show my teacher the model that I made, thats right, you guessed it! I decided to create a 3D animation
of a plant cell instead of what ultimately would have been easier and less time consuming, of the traditional thrown together hand crafted model.
The animation consisted of a 360 degree rotation of the Cell and then cut in half to see the inner workings.

While it remains an unconventional way, the teacher agreed to mark it on its own merit, and sure enough I’m pretty sure I got an 80 or 90 percent on that
assignment. It was a mark that I took home to share with my parents and be proud of! Not only did I complete an assignment with an awesome grade
but I did this on my own terms to make those terms more exciting for me!

At this point, as the title says, I learned my life will succeed in many ways, and many of those ways will be unconventional.
While I struggle now, every day explaining myself to people and what I’d love to do with my life, they find it hard to understand and comprehend.

Being an artist is not a hobby for me, it is a life long journey, that I am extremely passionate about and cringe when people talk about it as though it is not an “Acceptable” career path. So it becomes discouraging at times to have to tell people and they look down upon my path, that chose me, I didn’t choose it. It’s also at times disheartening to hear people close to me say things like “Well, you still need to make money, why can’t you just get A job and do this on side”

It’s not as simple as it sounds, being creative is not a hobby for some, for some it is a way of life! For me my creativity comes out the most in the middle of the night, which it would be pretty hard to hold down a day job just to make money and work on what you’re truly passionate about at night. It’s not a matter of sacrifice, because as a creative I’m not willing to sacrifice this which I need more than I need oxygen, which is to be creative and channel my passions into what ever project I undertake such as writing a novel, children’s book or working on poetry, photography is another craft that I excel in that could potentially create a revenue stream for myself.

And while everyone else may see my approach as unconventional, I will bring home that report card at the end of my life, and it will say 100% Great job!
Sometimes life isn’t about a structured lifestyle, sometimes for some people it’s about defying the status quo of what life should look like and creating your own
path.

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1989 – The year I was reborn.

“Stories are how we think. They are how we make meaning of life. Call them Schemas, scripts, cognitive maps, mental models, metaphors, or narratives. Stories are how we explain how things work, how we make decisions, how we justify our decisions, how we persuade others, how we understand our place in the world, create our identities, and define and teach social values.”
– Dr. Pamela Rutledge, Director, Media Psychology Research Center

The year was 1989, I was 6 years old, I seem to recall it was rainy that day but I could be wrong perhaps it’s just how I remember it. On this day, I watched my first film (that I remember) in the theatre. The film in question was of course Tim Burton’s 1989 interpretation of DC comic super hero “Batman”

I don’t remember much about being in the theatre oddly enough, but I remember the feeling I had when I got out of the theatre. Being so mesmerized by the violent glamour of a Hollywood film, the energy surged through my veins. I was so immersed in the idea behind the dark caped crusader who battled evil while the rest of the general population slept in their nice cozy beds. I wanted to be Batman, I wanted to turn myself into a force of good, and make a difference in this world.

When exiting out of the theatre, for that brief moment in time, I was Batman! I began running towards where our vehicle was parked, and, I jump on top of the ledges and acted as though they were my roof tops in a scene I was playing out in my head. And when I leaped off back on the cement side walk, landing was rough. My feet planted firmly on the ground, they began to throb with pain from the impact. But, I said, I am Batman! And Batman doesn’t feel that pain, no, he keeps going no matter how many times gets hurt or knocked down. Batman is a fighter, and people depend on his endurance to keep going until he can not go any further!

And I continued towards our car, so, why is this important to who I am now you ask? Well, Batman was the first feature film I ever saw, I fell in love with the idea behind good vs evil. I think we all have that story to tell where we learned the difference between the two. It just so happens that’s when I also fell in love with the idea of being a filmmaker.

And instead of wanting to be Batman, I wanted to be Tim Burton, famous movie director and my inspiration. I wanted to inspire that kind of energy within someone young or old. I wanted to people to say, your film inspired ME to become a filmmaker myself. I felt compelled to create and craft stories that evoked emotions within the very soul of a human being or touched a person’s heart so deeply they’ll never forget the emotion.

After that faithful night way back 24 years ago in 1989, my destiny was officially sealed
no matter how long it would take to get there, no matter how many ledges I must leap off of, I will make it to that celebrity status. There is no pain to feel, for future people need me to do what I need to do to feel that inspiration in life. And go after their passion & dreams, on that faithful night, I became a super hero in my own right.

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And In the beginning God said let there be light.

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”  ― Albert Einstein

Suppose I should start this blog from the beginning, when the miracle of birth first took place. Born April 2nd 1983 a day after April fools day, I saw the light for the very first time. Born into an immigrant family that moved from Italy to Canada, before I was born of course. The youngest of 3, both of which are of male persuasion.

My father, a hard working italian carpenter, strong male figure with a soft spoken heart and easy going. A man who loves nature and reading about history, he would love nothing more than just go exploring all day long in the near by forestry area.

And my mother, a woman of many jobs and talents, but the one she probably enjoyed most was being a mother to us three boys. Unless of course we didn’t do what we were told to do, but I’m sure that is like of all mothers.

The two of them raised us in a home my father built with his two hands and have been here since the 1970’s. We grew up next to our elementary school, only a hop skip and jump away, practically in our own backyard actually.

In the younger years of my life, I would say I was fuelled by imagination. I had 4 childhood friends, and we all lived within the same section of the neighbourhood. We would go out and use our captive imaginations to weave our own adventure stories. We would role play entire war story sequences that would last for days, create a futuristic worlds using what ever we had at our disposal, turning  average into something magical such as a run down skate board morphed into a futuristic hover board with time traveling capabilities.

My one friend, I always thought his dad was some sort of crazy creationist, not in the religious sense but because he was able to build his son a Go Cart. Of course who wouldn’t be envious of another child for having his very own personal Go Cart. This Go Cart set up the scene to many wondrous shoot em up gangster style cops and robbers scene.

My other friend, had collection of props, masks, toy guns and had a huge amount of space in his back yard that merely helped us facilitate our gangster style adventures and ironically lived across the street from the one that had the go cart.

These days I remember, for they were of a simpler time where using your imagination and ability to create was not frowned upon but encouraged! But alas with all good things, they must end. We grew apart and moved on from the life we knew and loved and developed and forged new friendships. But they mark unquestionably the beginning of everything for me, at least, in my mind what I can remember from my childhood.

This was the beginning, the beginning of my life long path of creating and adopting a creative imagination.

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